My baby girl is 4 months old!! She now fits in to her 3-6 months clothes which I’m having fun dressing her in. And it’s autumn which means she can finally wear the super cute coat I brought for her from River Island. On the not so joyous side she has started teething. It will probably be another few months before we see signs of a little tooth popping through, but in the meantime it’s dribbling, biting and winging time. I invested in a few different teething toys to try which I got from Boots. The first one was the original fruit shaped teethers that go in the fridge. The second one was the Nuby tether bug a loop. I was actually surprised at how hard it is, I worry it’s too hard for her gums but maybe it’s supposed to be (I don’t know?!). The last one I brought was the Nuby black pendant teething necklace. I love this one because I can wear it round my neck which gives her something to chew on while I’m carrying her. We recently went on holiday to Germany so it was perfect for travelling because it meant it didn’t drop and get dirty and she could have it while she sat on my lap on the plane journey.
So as I mentioned we had our first trip abroad as a family of 3. We flew in to Frankfurt to visit my boyfriend’s family, to spend time with them and let them meet baba. Travelling with a baby was actually easier than I thought it would be. There are some major benefits! We got to board the plane first and skip the queues on the other side. I was literally feeling like a VIP. The only thing that was tricky was getting the pushchair around. There weren’t always lifts which meant having to get the pushchair and the baby and our luggage up and down steps!
Apart from our trip away me and baba have just been enjoying each other’s company at home, while her daddy is at work. I’ve started cooking during the day, but I’m finding that it takes up most of the time I put aside for myself to get things like my blog and my coursework done. She is pretty good at entertaining herself on her playmat but that only gives me a half an hour window. The only other time I have is when she naps but that isn’t always guaranteed. That is probably the part of motherhood I find most difficult. If I know I have stuff to do, even if it’s not imminent, I feel stressed. I like to be on top of things and get the jobs on my to do list ticked off straight away. This is one thing you compromise as a mother. It’s about using the time you have wisely to get stuff done but also giving yourself a chance to just chill! To be honest that’s all you really want to do when you have a few minutes to yourself, just lay down, shut your eyes and relax.
It’s now 4 months postpartum for me and I feel great. I’m honestly the happiest I have ever been. I hope that doesn’t come across obnoxious or anything but I am just so content with my life right now. I having a loving boyfriend, a supportive family and a beautiful, intelligent, fascinating daughter (even if I do say so myself!). I know a lot of people go through postnatal depression, and I honestly thought I was going to be one of those people because of mental health issues I have been faced with in the past, but I truly believe that my daughter has given me a new lease of confidence and motivation to strive for the best in life.
I’m starting to get back into shape. I spent weeks moaning to my boyfriend about how unhappy I was with my body and how self-conscious I was feeling. It’s actually crazy though because I’m the skinniest I’ve ever been (apart from the baby fat on my belly). However I’m feeling so unfit and out of shape. I’ve lost my bum, I no longer have thick thighs and I can probably only run for about 2 minutes. My boobs are humongous so there’s no problems there! I know everyone has different body goals but I love a thick figure with some healthy meat on it. Anyway I’m back in the gym now training with my boyfriend and eating healthier so dream body is soon to come.
By the way is it normal to feel broody such a short time after giving birth? I keep seeing newborns on my Instagram timeline and it gets me so excited to go through pregnancy and birth all over again!