After a busy month of moving in to our new home and getting organised, we are now settled and getting used to the changes. Despite baby girl having her own room, I am still struggling with getting her to sleep there for the night. I have implemented a new bedtime routine-dinner at half 6, bath at half 7 and bed by half 8- although it’s proving tricky to get her down to sleep at this time. I am trying persevere in carrying her back to her bed after she wakes up, but if I’m being honest I’m not doing very well! As well as getting her used to being in her own bed, I think I’m having to train myself to get used to the idea too! I love sleeping beside her every night, but it would be nice to get her settled in her own bed at a reasonable time so I can get some of my coursework done or just enjoy some time alone with her daddy.
She is such a curious baby, I love how she is so attentive to everything going on around her. She is now sitting up, with the occasional wobble, and taking more interest in a few of the toys we brought for her. Her favourite is still the Fisher Price Playmat- she loves grabbing the dangling the toys, and putting it in her mouth. She still doesn’t have any teeth but I’m sure they will soon make an appearance as she’s constantly dribbling. Her appetite is increasing, so she is now on 2 meals a day and continuing with breast milk. I am so pleased that I have been able to breastfeed for this long. I am still going to try to continue until she is 1, but at one point I thought I was going to have to introduce formula. I was really struggling to pump enough milk, so I could leave a bottle for daddy to give on the days I am at uni. However I managed to get my milk supply back, which you can read about here. I just love the intimacy of breastfeeding, and wasn’t quiet ready to give that up, so I am over the moon that I won’t have to just yet. On a note so great note, I have been suffering with the flu and tonsillitis for the past few weeks. All I can say is thank goodness for grandmothers! I was really struggling with looking after her all day while feeling absolutely awful but some play dates over at her granny’s house meant I could get some much-needed rest.
I have so enjoyed this past month. She is honestly such a joy to be around, and as her personality develops I feel even closer to her. Before I finish I just want to say a few things after hearing comments thrown around social media. A mothers job is beautiful, fun, inspiring but also bloody hard! I am NOT a perfect mother, I am totally unprepared and rely on google for most of my parenting! However what I can say with 100% confidence is that I try my best in every way possible. All I want is for my daughter to have the best start to life, and for me to create a positive and creative environment for her to be around. I also want a healthy and happy lifestyle for myself, which means having a balance between doing things for baby and doing things for ME. everyone’s me time is different, I would be happy putting my feet up, watching Jane The Virgin with a big bowl of popcorn but for others it may be going out, seeing their friends, which I also like to do. Either way we are entitled to spend our time how we chose, and I think it is such a shame that people feel it necessary to share their opinions on the matter. There is nothing wrong with spending a night away from baby allowing yourself to just have some you time, and you shouldn’t let anyone tell you otherwise. It most certainly won’t hurt baby and it defiantly does not make you a bad mother. Finding a balance between being mummy and being Maya makes for a healthy mindset and a positive attitude towards parenting, in my opinion. So allow yourself to be every version of yourself that you love. Life is not over (as some people state) when you have a baby, in fact it gives you a whole new aspect that makes life that little bit more magical than before.